wow.

i remember during my junior year in college a friend told me that funerals were supposed to be a time of joy and happiness. This was because the soul of the deceased was being liberated from the earth and was going on to a much happier place. Maybe I'm selfish, or maybe I'm dumb...but no matter how hard i keep trying to convince myself of this I cant find happiness in all of this. What makes it even worse is that I know she is right.

but yea...

over my life i have heard and seen some horrible things.
nothing is worse than seeing a mother crying over her dead child.
nothing comes even close.